There’s nothing I love more than a new adventure, discovering a new place I have never been before and learning all I can about an area, a culture, a people, a region and so on. I’ve backpacked to over 30 countries and I’ve lived in 7 different cities and towns here in Canada. Even when I have stayed in a community for a year or more I have had a tendency to move my place of residence a time or two and often changed jobs multiple times as well. I have had the opportunity to try on so many “hats” (so to speak) and I am grateful to have had a glimpse at some of my numerous options out there in terms of work and lifestyle… I have been called a gypsy, a commitment phobe, and a rolling stone. Typically speaking, I like change, I find it refreshing. Looking back I would say that searching for something new has almost been like an addiction to me. I have a real love-hate relationship with the sensation of pushing myself to the edge of my comfort zone to see what I may discovered, often this is when I truly discover life!
I am blessed in many ways. In the last five years all of my traveling, career experimentation and expeditioning have been made all the sweeter by joining my life’s path with an amazing man, who has his own fire for adventure. I always preferred traveling on my own, being completely unhindered by anyone else’s agenda, but as it turned out, I just hadn’t found the right partner in crime yet. Once I did it really was a game changer. Our journeys are not the same, but they run in tandem most the time and I really couldn’t ask for more.
Recently we have made another monumental move. We have indefinitely relocated to Whitehorse, Yukon Territory. This move, I must admit, was an unexpected one. This was not really part of the plan… the plan to which we have yet to really get a concrete handle on. After spending a year in the magical West Kootenays of BC the bank account began to need some serious life support and venturing elsewhere was really our only choice. Obviously, Whitehorse was not our only option but it was the only option that was going to be a completely new experience for both of us. And since we have both been quite interested in experiencing the north of Canada this seemed like a fabulous way to do it.
So now that I’m up here what comes next? For all my talk of yearning for the unknown and new challenges to dig into I have seemed to find myself in a bit of a vacuum of transition… and to be honest I’m not really sure where to go from here. I feel like this time even more things have to change, to shift further toward the life I seek, no matter where I am in the world. My safe fall back has always been to find a new serving job in each new place I go to get myself settled, but I feel like I have really exhausted my time in the food service industry. It no longer brings me any pleasure and seems to foster unhealthy habits. There is only very sporadic film work in the area… where I suppose I am most qualified, and breaking into the yoga scene… my current life pursuit… is going to really take some time before I can build those relationships to get myself in the door, and even then it is certainly not going to pay the bills all on it’s own. My brain is tumbling each and everyday to think of something I can do with myself to continue on the path of wellness and positivity, while also being able to bring home some kind of living… A conundrum for many of us no?
My experience tells me that dealing with my fear and pushing beyond it is the only way to become unstuck. Like every other time I have started again I am trying really hard right now to focus on the things I have the ability to affect and to chill the heck out on the things that I don’t… (sometimes easier said than done for this typically stubborn virgo… I’ve been doing battle with the control freak within me for so many years now!). And so, I’m making the choice to say no to the things that usually come easy to me, like finding a serving job, that I know will only satisfy me for a few weeks at most and I’m doing that on the bet that persistently looking for something better suited to the lifestyle that I want will eventually present itself.
My moto right now is “You have to decide what your highest priorities are and have the courage – pleasantly smiling, nonaplogetically – to say ‘no’ to other things. And the way to do this is by having a bigger ‘yes’ burning inside.” – Stephen Covey
As I begin again (yet again), with another new chapter in this brand new environment, I will remind myself on the daily that the reason I seek change so often is because I am constantly growing and refining and transforming… like we all are. So here’s to this new journey of mine! Whitehorse… You are a beautiful, wild, and welcoming place. Thank you for having me… now show me what you’ve got!