I, like you, am ready to shed the weight of the growing darkness, the darkness that literally grows through the months of fall and early winter begging us to slow down and go inward, to pause and reflect. I can feel this darkness through to my deepest self this year, it’s heavy all the way down to my bones and a weight that must be released.
It’s been one heck of a year! For so many of us it has been a year of transition and challenge. As December winds down and I contemplate the arrival of new things I know undoubtedly I must first find closure and completion with all that sits before me… It’s time to close the cycle.
A solstice practice can be quite a sacred thing. I celebrated the summer solstice with community, moving in unison to complete 108 sun salutations with dedications to the self, to those we hold dear, to the greater community, to the world and to the divine. My world has changed dramatically since that summer event and I felt it most natural to celebrate this winter solstice on my own, to intimately entangle myself with the closing of a cycle, to honor what needs to be accepted and what I need to let go of so that I may make space for the new.
Last night I called upon Shiva, the most complex of the Hindu Holy Trinity. He represents goodness, benevolence and protection but he is also the leader of evil spirits and ghosts. Shiva is known as the destroyer, he is intrinsically associated with time and destroys the universe at the end of each cycle which then allows for a new Creation.
The final stages of the cycle I’ve been swirling within aligns strangely with the end of this calendar year. I must admit I am not normally one for New Years Resolutions, I have found in my experience that change and growth should be honoured and acknowledged throughout each phase of the year, but this year I am making allowance to align my resolutions with what appears to be a very natural cycle, a clear end and a clear beginning. There has been all kinds of crazy change happening over here, threads initiated in various directions to grow and evolve, manifestation of all kinds is lurking beneath the surface.. and yet something anchors me down to what was. This connection or perhaps dependance needs to be released, or even better – destroyed. Only by destroying these fixation I have about what life is supposed to look and feel like, and about what and who I am will I have the ability to truly move forward, ready and open for the next cycle to begin.
And so I summon Shiva.
OM Namah Shiva
I bow to Shiva, the supreme reality, the inner Self. I bow to the consciousness that dwells in all. I bow to my true identity – the inner self which remains intact after everything ends.
OM Namah Shivaya Gurave
I offer myself to the light, The Auspicious One, who is the true teacher within and without.
Who assumes the form of Reality, Consciousness and Bliss,
Who is never absent and is full of peace,
Independent in existence, the vital essence if illumination.
To all that was, all that is and all that will be.