Let me begin by acknowledging, with full awareness, how privileged I am in this world. To be born to a middle class family in Canada I know with legitimacy I have endured very little in terms of real hardship in my life. I have been blessed with a good life and I am very grateful for it.
This passed year, however, has taught me some incredible things about the good life and that there can definitely be TOO MUCH of a good thing.
This year I bought (and began renovating) a house, built (literally from the ground up) and opened my own yoga studio, and I had an amazing wedding. This year was really, really full!!!
This year has taught me unbelievable things about love and gratitude.
It has taught me a lot about anxiety and fear.
It has taught me how to set limits (even if this year was not particularly exemplary in that regard), how to ask with clarity for what I want and how to re-jig when things don’t go as planned.
This year, probably most importantly, taught me how to be with challenge and the discomfort of growth.
Growth can be incredibly uncomfortable.
It has been a very interesting experience to witness my own conscious awareness and acceptance that there is much within the state of action I am not in control of. The power to surrender and allow things to just be shitty and hard sometimes without having to be emotionally and daily tied up in it.. That is freedom.
In my growth this year I have had to learn to be okay with the overwhelming fear that accompanies risk. I had to learn that following my own heart sometimes means stepping on toes. And I had to learn that it was impossible to stay still where I was, that growth and change were coming one way or another, and that I could either step into the current and work to manage the flow or be swept under.
This year taught me about Transformation.
(When we opened our first wall to turn 2 little windows into a sliding glass door.)
(When an old fence became a new studio reception desk!)
This year taught me about Endurance.
(the work of taking down 4 120′ fir trees to make space for a yoga studio.)
This year taught me about fear.
(My friend Matt tells me that construction is almost always over budget and behind schedule. When we learned we had to dig out the entire canter of our foundation frost walls, back fill and re-compact before continuing… this was my first real experience with huge unexpected cost and planning!)
This year taught me about persistence.
(Webster define persistence as:
– the quality that allows someone to continue doing something or trying to do something even though it is difficult or opposed by other people
– the state of occurring or existing beyond the usual, expected, or normal time
These men truly defined commitment and persistence this year.)
This year taught me about the depth of love.
This year taught me about growth.
This year taught me about patience and adaptability
This year taught me about trust.
This year taught me about gratitude.
(One of the very hardest parts about the growth of this year was moving on from something I loved so much. I am beyond grateful to my friend Krista, for her love, support and pure kindness! Glow Studio holds a crazy special place in my heart!)
And…eventually, this year helped to teach me how to return to simplicity.
I would not want every year of my life to be as crazy full as this one was… But I’m pretty glad I had the chance to experience it.
Here’s to whatever comes next!